Yesterday, I learned I received a 'most valued lecturer among first-year political science students' award. (Technically it was a tie, and I have been toying with asking for a formal recount--the hanging chad jokes write themselves.) It's the first quasi formal teaching recognition I have ever received, and it's bittersweet to receive it while being highly self-conscious of my partial disabilities. It's not wholly a surprise because my giant lecture course has been very popular for about five years now. I have always been popular among some of my students, but others also found me incredibly irritating (at the start of my career my student evals always had bimodal distributions).
It's not a coincidence that my teaching popularity has improved since the onset of my long covid. (For my official "covid diaries" see here; here; here; here;here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here; here.; and here.) One important life change since I tried to recover from long covid is to reduce cognitive (and physical) multi-tasking through the day and also at any moment. The effect has been that I put much less demands on my teaching: during lectures I am focused primarily on my pedagogical aims for my students and I am not trying to entertain myself (by clever asides or meta-theoretical commentary).
This past week, I was not allowed to forget my long covid. I violated my no multi-tasking rule, and I could not plan my days (or exercise) in ways that suppress my symptoms (headaches, cognitive fatigue, bad sleep, etc.). I had to do a lot of travel alongside some intense job-related meetings (I had a job search), and so I had to take more regular naproxen as a palliative than I would like. However, now I have almost four months without teaching (and much less travel), so I am looking forward to use the time to get back to some big intellectual projects and also continue my recovery with daily swimming and more leisurely pace.
For, this post is also the start of an experiment with partial monetizing some of my blogging at Substack. During covid and my fall research leave, I had time to reflect on my future. As many of you know, when in health, I split my time between Amsterdam (work) and London (family). But this means that among family, teaching, research, and a whole bunch of job duties I am consistently spread too thin in two (expensive) places. Being on partial disability allowed me to reconfigure my position at work to focus on things that spark joy (and to let go of those that don't): undergraduate teaching and research. I also have cut down on travel between London and Amsterdam, but this has led to less time with family (and less time at work some time of year). But this Fall, I return to full-time teaching and, if my health holds up, I will increasingly be tapped again for tasks that make it hard to square all my commitments and not undermine my health.
In an ideal world, I would get a new position that either would let me work/live in London or that would pay enough so that I could go half-time as long as my teenage son is in school. But until that happens, I want to blog my way to an income that would require me to be on partial (albeit structural) leave. So all my (after tax) substack income would go to off-setting salary (and so leave) because my university/department rules do not allow me to supplement my income over my basic salary. I am not very optimistic about this plan because (i) I refuse to be a culture warrior; (ii) my topics are a niche product; (iii) I am not the world's greatest writer even in philosophy--having been ruined for modern audiences by translating Cicero as a teenager; (iv) the first sixteen subscribers to my Substack all opted for the free subscription.
The decision to go with Substack has not been an easy one. When John Protevi made the executive decision to make NewAPPS advertising free, I have always been happy with the fact that my blogging (also at D&I and Crookedtimber) was orthogonal to the monetized market place of ideas and uncorrupted by financial considerations. (This meant money left on the table, especially in the years at NewAPPS.) After all, incentives matter, and they do shape decisions, and your good opinion and refined judgment, dear reader, always matters most to me (feel free to add a choice quote from Seneca or Socrates here). In fact, having become increasingly aware of the role marketing budgets (and publicists) play in recent public facing philosophy, I have taken pride in my role in the intellectual credit economy.
Anyway, I don't want to dramatize this Substack decision too much (it's only an experiment at first, after all): I will continue to blog at Crookedtimber (and D&I), and a lot of my Substack will be freely available. But I am leaving the high ground: alia iacta est, for the price of a cheap glass of wine you can read my near-daily musings here.
Hi, Eric:
During a career in investigations; civil rights; and, administrative law I was skeptical of the popularly extolled practice of multi-tasking. I had been taught to do a few things well, rather than being expected to do a greater number poorly. This of course flew in the face of competitive rigour and great expectation. I watched as multitaskers screwed up while being praised by superiors. This was politics with a small p. With the right sort of support and influence, those wunderkind got ahead easily. As Jimmy Carter once said: life is unfair.
Posted by: Paul D. Van Pelt | 04/14/2023 at 05:54 PM